Private Session: Orange Crush

songs for sitting on BART after work, waiting for the 16th street stop. 15 minutes ago, the stop was just three stops away.

the teenager standing next to me had a medium soda in her lackadaisical, manicured hand.

too gently, i think cynically. far too lightly for my taste.

minutes later, hands fanning at my blouse and pants.exasperated apologies matching honest eyes that, in my eyes, contrast her flaccid hands.

i don't mind, i tell her. it's fine, it really, really is.

 i hate Tinder anyways,i think.

for twenty more minutes I'll stand on the stalled BART car, covered in Orange Crush. i'll cancel my Tinder date, and i'll exit the train to find a taco instead.

a playlist for: submitting to what you hate (flaccid hands), recognizing the improbability of the everyday (who still drinks Orange Crush), taking a chance (wearing white on public transportation), and deciding to sing the lyrics down to the sidewalk on the way home (Erasure rocks).

Playlist

  1. Love Test by The Growlers on Chinese Fountain (Everloving, Inc.)
  2. Orange Crush by R.E.M. on Green (Warner Bros.)
  3. To Move On by Alex Izenberg on To Move On (Domino Recording Co)
  4. Newsbeat by Vulfpeck on Fugue State (Vulf Records)
  5. The Bus Song by Jay Som on Everybody Works (Polyvinyl Records)
  6. Feelin' Lovely by Connan Mockasin & Dev Hynes on Myths 001 (Kemado Records)
  7. A Little Respect by Erasure on The Innocents (Sire)
  8. Rebirth of Slick (Cool Like Dat) by Digable Planets on Reachin' (A New Refutation of Time & Space) (Blue Note Records)
  9. Cruel by St. Vincent on Strange Mercy (4AD)
  10. Slip Away by Perfume Genius on No Shape (Matador)
  11. Warts by Hinds on Leave Me Alone (Mom + Pop)
  12. World in My Hands (feat. Smino & Legit) by Saba on World in My Hands (Saba)
  13. It's All Good by Superorganism on It's All Good (Records DK)
  14. Every Single Thing by Homeshake on Fresh Air (Sinderlyn)
  15. Baby You're Out by Mac Demarco on This Old Dog (Captured Tracks)
  16. Love More by Sharon Van Etten on Epic (Ba Da Bing!)
  17. Old Ojai by Josh Dillard on Through the Eye of Time (Act So Big Forest)
  18. Depreston by Courtney Barnett on Sometimes I Sit And Think, And Sometimes I Just Sit (Marathon Artists Limited)
  19. Beat (Health, Life and Fired) by Thao with the Get Down Stay Down on We Brave Bee Stings (Kill Rock Stars)
  20. If I Could Find You (Eternity) by The Holydrug Couple on Moonlust (Sacred Bones Records)
  21. Lucky Girl by Fazerdaze on Morningside (Flying Nun Records)
  22. I Follow You by Melody's Echo Chamber on Melody's Echo Chamber (Fat Possum Records)
  23. (I'm Always Touched By Your) Presence, Dear by Blondie on Best of Blondie (Capitol)
  24. Sit Down by James on Gold Mother (Mercury Records)